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Here's just a random writing I did in school a few days ago:

What is this that I'm feeling?
I just can't get you off my mind

I can't get you off my mind,
you're always on my mind.
I can feel your warm embracing touch;
I can hear your honeyed voice;
I can smell your sweet fragrance;
I can see your beautiful eyes
and your mesmerizing gaze
that encaptures my soul
as I gaze upon them.

I can't get you off my mind,
you're always on my mind.
Everytime you're around,
my heart starts to race,
and my face goes crimson.
Everytime you're around,
I start to stutter when I talk;
the words just can't come out.

I can't get you off my mind,
you're always on my mind.
What is this that I'm feeling?
Everytime I see you smile,
everytime I think of you,
I just wanna know.

I wanna be with you,
be in your embrace;
I wanna see you,
see your face;
I wanna hear you;
hear your honey-sweet voice
whispering into my ear
as I fall into a deep slumber....

What is this that I'm feeling?
Do you feel it too?

So.... whaddya people think of it?

Speaking of this, I have recently realised that I'm falling for this girl (or so, I think).
I know, I know, I'm a girl.... But.... Why can't girls like girls? It's not like it's an offence, is it?
So yeah, my story coming up, "I hope you'll always have a reason to smile", it's dedicated to her (and I).
I really hope that she'll understand and accept the love that I feel for her....

Hey there, minna-san....

I'm feeling so lonely now, I don't know why....

Anyways, there's one thing to note:
Everytime I get emo, my ideas writing ideas start to come.

I'm gonna try to write a yuri story ( femslash if you don't know).
It's gonna be a first, so... don't expect that it's gonna be good. My writings aren't that good, I know....

Just for random's sake, here's the title I came up for it : "I hope you'll always have a reason to smile"

....

Really, I can't think how it's gonna start yet, however, I also shan't pamper minna-san by telling.
Besides, after typing this, I don't feel so emo already.
GRRRR. I hate it when that happens! All my ideas.... Gone in a poof!

I wonder if anyone would read my stories....

I have done my best

"Your grades are atrocious,
Did you study at all?"
A voice keeps ringing in my head.
Like fire brought to ice,
ice will melt...
Despair stains my cheeks.
My heart aches,
My soul burns.

"I have done my best!"
I scream inside.
"Wha, your grades suck
Like Hell, man!"
Another haunting voice
Enters my mind.

Another stream flows
Down my cheeks
Onto a mark.
"Nine out of twenty,"
It read.

"I did do my best...."

What do minna-san think about it? It's my first hand at poetry. I thought that it was really short and needed more elaboration. However, we are only limited to 20 lines for the poem.

I really want to know what minna-san think of my poem. So, all comments are welcome.

Konbanwa, minna-san! Here's chapitre 6! Enjoy!

#____The Dream that Destiny Brought Forth    Part I [Transformation]____#

[Destiny]

    Destiny looked through her cyrstal ball in disgust. The sight of Roxanne and Haseo cuddling together pissed her off. " This is atrocious! The princess of Gothica, and the prince of Lightenra. How sweet. Holding on to each other despite knowing that they are forbidden to love. They are even going against Fate.... What fools they are!"

    At the thought of Fate, Destiny's elf ears fell. Her eyes revealed a hint of despair. She and Fate also used to be like the present Haseo and Roxanne. They had been so happy together back then. They thought that they were bound by fate and destiny. They thought that their love would bloom. However, it was the Heaven Lord that had separated the both of them. They were never to see each other ever again. How she hated he Heaven Lord! How she longed to be with Fate.... But that seemed impossible. Their love was probably just not strong enough to defeat Heaven Lord's wrath.... They probably just weren't meant to be....

    Ever since Destiny got torn away from Fate, they had been assigned to serve the Heaven Lord. Whatever duties they were given, they had to carry out. Destiny had control over people's destinies, while Fate had control over people's fates. At the moment, both of them shared the same task. And, it was of great importance: Separating Roxanne from Haseo. At the thought of being controlled by the emotionless Heaven Lord, Destiny felt utterly pissed off and disgusted.

    " Snow. Firey. Dark. Light. Your time has come. Go."

    The four cratures obeyed Destiny's command. They were created only to serve a sole purpose----to hep fulfill the task that both Fate and Destiny had been given. In a flash, they all teleported to Roxanne's room in Gothica.

[The four legendary creatures]

    The four legendary creatures hovered over the sleeping Haseo and Roxanne in mid-air. " Looks like we have found the chosen ones," Fiery started.

    " Indeed we have...." Snow muttered.

    " The prophecy shall be fulfilled. It is our duty. Afterall, that is the purpose of our existence. We cannot hesitate after coming this far," Fiery added.

    Snow nodded disappointedly in agreement. However, she knew that this would be the last time that she would be able to see Firey face to face. Dark was thinking likewise at that moment. She wouldn't see Light ever again.

    Firey and Light could read their thoughts. They, too, did not want to leave Snow's and Dark's side. However, they knew that they had an important mission to fulfill at hand.

    Firey cuddled against Snow for the last time, and so did Light and Dark. "Maybe someday, we will all meet again...."

    After their last bid of farewell, they dissolved into Haseo's and Roxanne's dreams.

[Roxanne & Haseo]

    " This hollowness.... Where am I?" Haseo and Roxanne thought simultaneously.

[Death/Roxanne, Snow & Dark]

    Shards of ice drifted around Roxanne. The coldness in the air was so intense that her body became partially numb. "Death...." came a ghostly voice.

    "Who.... Who are you? Show yourslef," Roxanne inquired.

    Amongst the icy blue cyrstals, a bright blue portal tore open. Roxanne prepared for a counter attack. However, it wasn't necessary. A black, two-tailed vixen stood in front of her. On its head boe the sign of a glowing blue snowflake. Next to the vixen was a mutated creature. It was one of the strangest Roxanne has ever seen. It had the body of a black raven and the head of a vampire bat. On it's chest was engraved yet another symbol. The Death in Roxanne recognised it. It was the mark of the Hell Lord's curse, the one that she also had on her forehead.

    " Snow and Dark. My elements. My guardians." Roxanne whispered without her own knowledge.

[Nigel/Haseo, Firey & Light]

    Balls of fire came licking towards Haseo. The heat was unbearable as Haseo's surroundings became fiery red. " Nigel," a freindly and warm voice spoke.

    "Who.... Who are you? Reveal yourself," Haseo shivered despite the sweltering heat.

    Amongst the flames, a bright orange portal tore open. Haseo was stunned. A firey male wolf-like creature stood right in front of him. Next to the fiery furball, was a white eagle. The eagle had a symbol on its chest----a cross.

    "Firey and Light. My elements. My guardians." These words spilled from Haseo's lips without his notice.

[Roxanne, Snow & Dark]

    Snow and Dark explained everything in detail to Roxanne. Roxanne was not surprised at all. She had known all this while that she was born under the Snow and Dark stars. Destiny had already planned it all. However, it pained her to face the reality of having to part with Haseo, her prince. She merely nodded in silence.

[Haseo, Firey & Light]

    " No. I won't do it. Never! Why? Why must we be forbidden to love? Why can't we be together? Why?!" Haseo couldn't believe his ears.

    " You two are from completely different dimensions! Destiny has arranged for both of you to lead separate lives! Understand that, Nigel! You just can't be with her!" Firey growled.

    " No. I object. As my guardian, you should obey my every command! I shall not leave her side! Never! I have sworn to be by her side, to love her, to protect her. No one will stop my decision. Absolutely no one!"

    " Suit yourslef. But remember, Nigel, you may be able to change your destiny, but you can never escape from the hands of Fate."

[The four legendary creatures & Destiny]

    " Proceed with the ritual," Destiny ordered as she observed everything from her cyrstal ball.

    " Yes, ma'am." the legendary creatures replied telepathically.

[Roxanne, Snow & Dark]

    "This transformation may not be able to restore what you have lost.  However, your strength will boost to a hundred per cent. Ready, Death? This will hurt a little," Snow and Dark continued.

    Roxanne nodded solemnly and steeled herself to resist the pain.

    Dark grew in size. The creatures eyes were blood red. She wrapped her feathery black wings around Roxanne. Roxanne was surounded in darkness. However, she was not frightened by it. Dark was her friend. She did not fear her. Dark's fangs dived into Roxanne's neck. Then, Dark became a thick black cloud of smoke and entered through the fang marks on Roxanne's neck. After that, black feathery wings shot out from Roxanne's back. The mark of Hell Lord's curse became red. Roxanne's eyes turned a crimson colour, and her pupils became a slit. Her complexion also became paler. Her fangs grew longer and sharper as her vampirism was awakened.

    Snow was next. She looked into Roxanne's eyes. Both the eyes that were filled with hurt and pain met. Ice splinters danced and circled furiously around Snow and Roxanne. Snowflakes descended from the hollowness. Roxanne grew numb with coldness. Snow disappeared and changed into the form of snowflakes. Snowflakes embedded into Roxanne's milky complexion. The snowflakes stung at her skin. Roxanne's blood froze and travelled up to her heart. The snow symbols were embedded all over Roxanne's body. Death could feel her old self creeping slowly back into her heart. However, her strong emotions for Haseo had still remained. Despite that fact, she had became cold once more.

    Roxanne felt so much sorrow, hurt and pain in her heart. Physically and mentally, she was badly hurt. And she had just realised that her crave for blood was getting stronger. Her vampirism had been dormant since birth, however now, it was awakened. Her body did not have any blood intake since, and she desperately needed blood to regenerate her.

[Haseo, Firey & Light]

    " Light. Let's do it." Firey snarled, fire spewing out between his teeth.

    Light nodded in agreement. The white eagle grew larger in size. A blinding light shot out in all directions. Haseo covered his hand over his eyes. Firey walked towards Light. Light wrapped his white feathers around Firey. Firey was surrounded by light. Flames licked furiously at Light's feathers. Light melted into Firey's flaming body. Soft white feathers shot out from Firey's blazing red body. The cross symbol was emblazoned on his forehead.

    Without notice, Firey pounced onto Haseo. He placed his flaming paws against Haseo's chest. He melted into Haseo's heart. Haseo was flushed with fiery warmth. The flames tickled him, as his heart was filled love, happiness and all kinds of positive energy. Flames licked around his entire body, embedding the fire symbols. A cross was formed on Haseo's forehead. Soft, delicate white feathers shot out from Haseo's back.

    Haseo felt all re-energised. Warmth filled his heart. He felt as if he could never have felt any better. He felt as if he had been given a new life.

    He may have felt that he was at the top of the world then. However, Roxanne was feeling down in the dumps then.

    What they didn't know was that this was only the beginning. Whatever that awaited them was not going to be good....

#____End of Chapitre 6____#

There you go. This took me hours to complete! It's such an achievement for me. I know that I might have spelt Firey as Fiery. However, this is the correct spelling: Firey. I'll correct it really soon.

Anyways, arigatou, minna-san!

Edited: The spelling errors should have been corrected now. Do tell me if I happen to miss something out!

Ohaiyou, minna-san! Gomenasai for the late entry. I really had no time to enter Chapitre 5. However, it's here apparently.

#____Crossed Paths Once More____#

[Roxanne]

    Years passed. Roxanne waas training herself to be a skilled Gothican. Her skills had been perfected time and again. It had reached a point at which there was no one else who could surpass her abilities. At the same time, however, she always thought of nobody else but Haseo. The heart necklace in which he had given to her, she always had it by her side. Hoping that she would be able to see Haseo again anytime soon....

    And her waiting was not going to be in vain. Recently, she had frequent visions of Haseo. Soon, the time would come. They would cross each other's paths again....

    It was destined that they would meet again one day.

    Roxanne teleported to Hell for no particular reason. Something was telling her to do so. She had suddenly felt drawn towards it. She desperately needed to find out what is was that made her feel so.

    Swirls of darkness grew in size around Roxanne. In less than a minute, the darkness disappeared, together with Roxanne. She hung her head low, waiting to reach Hell soon. Her instincts were telling her to go there, and she was feeling unusually curious. Her heart was pounding wildly against her ribcage.

    The soft, irony smell of blood filled the air. Following the thick scent, Roxanne saw a person lyind sprawled on the ground. She ran towards it immediately.

    A frail-looking boy, about Roxanne's age, lay on the floor, face-down. His aura made Roxanne's heart beat even faster. It felt so familiar. He was definitely dead. Blood was flowing out from his wounds profusely. His wound.... It looked as if he had been attacked by an animal. It was shaped like a claw.... It seemed to be a fire dragon's claws. His wounds seem charred at certain areas. There was definitely no mistake in that.

    The blood still looked fresh. It enticed Roxanne. She went to turn the body over to see his face. As she did so, her heart raced. Then, when she saw his face, her heart practically stopped beating. " No. It can't be.... Can it? " she gasped.

    So it was who she had been thinking of all this while. It was Haseo, her prince. The one whom she had been waiting for.

    At the corner, she could hear voices. " I've heard of a new arrival. He's a strong young lad. A perfect addition to our army that shall serve the mighty Hell Lord! Long live the Hell Lord! " one of them had said.

    " Oh no, this is not good. They are talking about Haseo! I had better take him back to Gothica, and fast, " Roxanne thought.

    She fell to her knees. She carried Haseo gently in her arms. Placing her hand on the ground, the ground became dark. The swirling darkness covered Haseo and Roxanne in a dome-shaped shield. They melted into the darkness and teleported back to Roxanne's room in Gothica within seconds.

    Roxanne quickly laid Haseo down on her bed. She hurriedly locked her bedroom door and shut all her curtains tight. " Nobody must know of this. Not even Alysandra, " Roxanne thought.

    She walked over to Haseo's side. Then, she noticed for the first time ever that Haseo was holding on so tightly to something and he had placed it on his chest. His expression on his face was the feeling of terror. Despite that fact, Haseo still looked charming to her, even in death. She bent over Haseo to release his grip from whatever he held in his hand, only to find out that it was the heart necklace in which she had given him.... Haseo still remembered her, despite that long period of time. He still remembered her! She used both her hands to hold his. Forcing back her tears, she whispered, " What has happened to you, my prince? Why have you died this way? Please, please don't leave me. I need you...."

    A single tear fell from her cheek. As Death, she knew that she coul still save him. Not by giving him another life or anything of that sort, but instead, reviving him. Even though it was forbidden, it was possible.

    Roxanne did not want to lose Haseo. She had loved him more than anything else in the world. She had loved him more than life itself. A stream of tears trickled down her cheeks. She placed her hand beneath Haseo's face. It felt cold, lifeless. It didn't give off its usual embracing warmth like it did the last time they had met. She knew that she had to do it. Even if it meant that she would be punished, as the act of revivng the dead was forbidden. She had to revive Haseo at all costs. To see his smile, to feel his warm embrace, Roxanne would sacrifice anything just to have Haseo come back to life.

    No revival spell had been made before. No one had even tried risking themselves to revive their loved ones. Roxanne was about to be the first. Since there was no spell, she had to use an alternative solution.

    Once dead, a person's heart would lose its life. All the feelings that used to emmbrace the heart would be gone. Roxanne wondered, " If the feelings of the heart are used to supply it with life, I could.... "

    She grabbed at her heart. She was reluctant. But then, when the thought of Haseo going to disappear from her, she could not hesitate. In order to let Haseo become his original self, he would need all of his feelings. However, he would feel the darkness of her heart in his. He would feel more negative feelings than positive feelings. That would not do him any good. Thus, Roxanne summoned the half of her heart that had most of her positive feelings in it. She bent over Haseo again, even lower this time. Her icy cold lips touched his. She placed her hands on his chest, hoping for the best. She concentrated hard on transferring her positive feeling to his. No mistake could be made.

    With that thought, Roxanne pressed her lips against Haseo's. As more of her feelings were getting drained away from her, Roxanne noticed that she was becoming weaker and weaker by the second. Finally, the transfer was complete.

    Roxanne fell onto Haseo, due to her sudden lack of strength. As she lay on Haseo, she could hear his heart beating again. His body was also slowly gaining warmth. However, Haseo still didn't open his eyes. Roxanne felt despair gnaw at her heart. Tears of despair trickled down her face, onto Haseo's clothes. Why wasn't it enough? Why? Why Haseo? Why can't you just open you eyes?

    She held the heart necklaces together with her hands in Haseo's. She hoped for a miracle to occur.

    Just at that moment, Haseo's dark blue eyes fluttered open. Roxanne felt so relieved. She had succeeeded in reviving Haseo. Roxanne forced herself to smile, with tears still rolling down her cheeks.

    " Roxanne...." Haseo muttered.

    " Haseo...."

    Haseo placed the heart necklaces back to where they belonged----around both of their necks. Then, he noticed that Roxanne had been crying. He raised his finger to gently wipe off Roxanne's tears. " Silly girl. Why are you crying? "

    Roxanne tried to stand up. However, she realised that she did not have sufficient strength to do so yet. She needed lots of rest in order to recuperate. Haseo had noticed this. His heart ached at the sight of it. He then touched his wounds. It did not hurt anymore. He frowned a little, " I was sure that I was dead. You didn't revive me using your own energy did you? You know that is forbidden. "

    Roxanne could only manage to whisper, " Yes.... It looks like there's nothing that I can hide from you, my prince. I knew that you would hate me for it. But still, I had to save you. I just had to. I'm so sorry, Haseo...."

    Haseo smiled and gave Roxanne a warm embrace, " I don't hate you for it, my princess. In fact, I should thank you for reviving me. For letting me see you again. "

    Haseo knew that both of them needed rest. As such, he lifted Roxanne onto the bed and let her lie on him. Before he closed his eyes, he glanced to look at Roxanne. Roxanne's eyes were already shut, deep in slumber. Haseo chuckled, before lowering himself down to kiss her on the forehead. " Rest well, my princess. May you have dreams of goodness whilst you slumber...."

#____End of Chapitre 5____#

That's the end of Chapitre 5. This is one of my most favourite chapitres. I know that certain parts are kind of weird. That would only be because I can picture the whole scene and it's just that I can't put it into words. Other than this chapitre, I also liked the way Chapitre 4 ended. I promise that Chapitre 6 is going to be better.

Doumo Arigatou Gozaimas, minna-san.

Last night.... All of a sudden, I thought of seeing his face again.... I was fortunate for I stil had my primary school class photos.

He was with in the same class with me since primary three till primary six. From primary three to primary four, I always thought he was a jerk as the others had called him. As such, I didn't notice much of him. Besides, back then, I was too, not much of a notice....

However, that thought had changed once I entered primary five....

It had so happened that we were supposed to sit next to each other. Back then, I thought that I was probably the unluckiest girl in the world to be sitting next to him. Who would have known that a few days later, I felt like I was the luckiest girl there ever was to be sitting next to him....

Everyone thought that he was a jerk. However, I saw more than just his surface. I saw his heart. He didn't turn out to be as bad as all the others had said he was. In fact, he was one of the nicest boys that I had ever come across....

He treated me well. He was really friendly. For a moment there, I thought that I was never invisible. I looked forward to meeting him in school everyday. That was probably when I knew that I loved him. I had loved the guy that everyone disliked. I had fallen in love with his mesmerising and encapturing heart. There and then, I just wished that we could be like that forever.

There was once when I was wronged by somebody else of taking their chair, the strangest yet nicest thing had happened to me. He had confronted that person, " Hey you! That chair belongs to Zoey! Don't you dare accuse her of stealing or taking your chair. She did no wrong!"

I was surprised. Nobody had ever stood up or protected me like that before. He was the first. I guessed I really began to love him more then. I felt that no one else could replace his place in my heart....

We even made comics togther. He also had created a game and asked me if I wanted to play it. Definitely I'd play it. Whenever I got picked by the teacher to answer a question, I could not answer as I had not being paying attention. However when he was around, he would tell me the answer to the question. Then, I would just tell the answer to the teacher. We had so much fun then. We (my best friend, Glenice, her crush, Jaymond, me and he) would always be laughing at his jokes. There was one time in class when we started connecting our names togther. Something like this: Jaymond+Glenice=Glenmond, Jaymond+Glenice=Jaynice.

Then, when we came to mixing my name with his, it became like this: Zoey+Nigel=Zogel, Zoey+Nigel=Nigey.

I had no idea why I started to laugh like I had lost all my senses. Back then, Nigel had said," Hey, Zoey! You're blushing aren't you? Your face is all red!"

Of course, I had to cover up the fact that I loved him,"No I'm not! Your face is red! You're the one whose blushing!"

Jaymond and Glenice couldn't help but burst into laughter too....

I was having the time of my life back then. Glenice also knew that I loved Nigel. Inside me, I knew that somehow, Nigel didn't like me. And soon, he would like someone else. Somehow, this thought had came to me. Somehow, I knew that Glenice and Nigel would love each other, while my love for him was one-sided. So, I told Glenice to promise me that no matter what happened, she would never ever love Nigel. She did as she was told. However, she thought that she would NEVER love Nigel. But she was wrong. I was right.... What I had thought did come true....

In primary six, despite the fact that Nigel and I were not sitting next to each other any more, I still loved him. However, I couldn't bring myself to tell him. I was afraid that he wouldn't like me the way I had loved him. As such, he didn't know of my love for him.

In the previous entry I have told you of what happened. So, I'll just move on from there.

Last night, when I saw his face in the photos again. I smiled. I smiled because I knew I loved him like nobody else would. I knew that I couldn't bring myself to hate him for choosing Glenice instead of me. It was all because of one emotion, one feeling that made me feel this way. It was love. For the sake of my love for him, I had sacrificed. As long as I could see him smile, it also made me smile.

[To my dearest love, Nigel]

Dear Nigel

I know that even though you didn't love me, I will still continue to love you. I had loved you since primary five when I first sat next to you. You aren't as bad as what the others say. On the outside you may seem to have many friends. However, on the inside, I know, you are lonely. Just like I am. But you need not be alone. I can be the one to think of you. I can be the one to love you. I can be the one who will appreciate you for who you are. Even if we are far away from each other, as long as you're in my heart, I'll never ever forget the Nigel you once were and always will be to me.

Love,

Zoey

PS: I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU AND FOR AN ETERNITY, my love, Nigel. I'll never forget you ever.

Here's Chapitre Four, Regina. Hope you like it. Enjoy, minna!

#____Haseo, the Prince (Nigel) of Lightenra____#

[Death]

#Just a little note from Fukona-sama before we go into this chapitre: Big commotion, as promised. It's Death's birthday, also.... The first day in which she met him....#

    The party had begun. Kings, Queens, Princes and Princesses from all dimensions flooded the castle's gateways. Death didn't really care----parties just weren't her thing.

    While everybody was enjoying themselves at the party, Death wandered off on her own to the balcony. The roses turned ash grey the moment Death into that area. She closed her eyes. She felt the cool dead breeze rushing towards her face, surrounding her. She envisioned herself in a cemetery, beside a lake. Instantly, she was teleported to that place, the deserted part of Gothica, also, the place she frequented.

    Death opened her eyes. She gazed at her surroundings before she closed her eyes once more. She could picture the pain and sufferings of the people who had died in that area. She felt their sorrow, their feelings. She saw their deaths flashing before her very eyes. She was witnessing the past. The past of the place that she stood on. The past that was forgotten in the Forgotten Lands of Gothica.

    Finally, the flasbacks stopped. Death found herself landing back at the cemetery, staring at the lake. She felt the sudden urge to sing----except that almost every song that she sang had a sad melody....

" Please, please forgive me

But I won't be home again

You won't cry for my absence, I know----

You forgot me long ago

Isn't something missing?

Isn't someone missing me...."

[Prince Nigel]

    Back at the castle, Prince Nigel from Lightenra was enjoying a drink at the balcony. Princess Death's voice had miraculously reached him----it seemed that only he could hear her voice. The song fluttered in the air, distracting him, calling him, and he had to find where it was coming from. He couldn't ignore it----this song, this beautiful melody, danced around his ears and blocked out everything else. Nigel lost his grip from his drink. It fell from his hand----shattering and spilling the drink. Nigel hadn't noticed a single thing. It was as if he was in a trance. He stood over at the rail and teleported to the Forgotten Lands of Gothica, following the thread of music, and right there and then, nothing else mattered.

    Then he saw her.

    There was somebody standing in front of the lake alone, and once Nigel had seen her, he felt as if he couln't look away. She was standing with her back to him, and he couldn't see her face, but he knew beyond the shadow of doubt that that melody belonged to her. Nigel felt like he had to get closer to her. To the song.

" Even though I'm the sacrifice,

You won't try for me, not now

Though I died to know you love me,

I'm all alone...."

    As he approached, and could see her better, the song grew around him until he could practically feel it against his skin. It felt like how he imagined dew would feel, setting in the early morning.

    Her hair was long and tangled, and the colour of cold winter moonlight. It fell down to her waist, the ends of her hair twisting and curling like the path of a river. Her dress was the darkest blue, darker than midnight and deep within the fabric lights flickered and then disappeared, like distant dying stars. The dress fell into tatters at the bottom.

    And that song, it dragged Nigel forward like the tide drags the sea....

" Isn't something missing?

Isn't someone missing me...."

    It sounded like water, like streams of silver, like crystals, tears and moonlight, embedded with sorrow. Nigel drifted towards her, mesmerized by the beautiful melody. With every note she sang, everything also became fainter and fainter, and with every step towards her, the song grew around him, so strong that he felt sure that if he was to close his eyes, he would even be able to see it.

    When Nigel was almost close enough to reach out and touch her, the melody stopped.

    " Who are you, and what do you want? "

    She slowly turned her head, her beautiful eyes of ice, bitter dreams, pain and sufferings....

[Nigel & Death]

    Prince Nigel bowed, " You must be the Princess Death. "

    Death's eyes were fixed on Nigel, " And you must be? "

    " Prince Nigel of Lightenra. It's a pleasure to meet you. "

[Death]

    Death's heart practically stopped beating. The very instant she laid eyes on Nigel, a profound change came over her. Death was deeply affected, and experienced a sudden warmth spreading through her being. She could not resist this feeling and, if she were honest, she did not wish to. She felt pleasantly strange, and wondered vaguely what was happening to her. She stared blankly at the prince's face. And then it came to her: she understood, she knew, that she was made to love those dark blue eyes. Death who was normally so cold, was flushed with warmth.

[Nigel]

    Nigel looked up. Then his eyes met Death's: they looked at each other, and immediately understood. They felt as if they had always known one another, as if they had lived only in the expectation of finding each other again someday. Nigel no longer saw Death in her dark midnight dress, he saw further----he saw her heart. And he realised that she would possess his own. There was only one word to describe what he was experiencing. Impalpable, stronger and more maddening than any other emotion, from now on, the word would lie in his heart, and in Death's eyes: love.

[Nigel & Death]

    Nigel walked over to Death's side. " You have a wonderful voice, princess. However, there is something that puzzles me."

    "Erm.... Thanks for the compliment. What is it that puzzles you, Prince Nigel? Do feel free to speak your mind. "

    " I was wondering, how could such a ravishing beauty like you be named Death? "

    On hearing that, Death's face went crimson. She turned away immediately. " Beautiful? You sure know how to charm a girl. "

    Sensing Death's discomfort, Nigel did not pursue further, and he dropped the subject. " Oh. I just have a way around girls. Anyway, it's a beautiful night tonight, isn't it? "

    At that, the dark midnight sky was lit with stars. The moon, too, had reappeared. " Yes, Prince Nigel. Indeed it is. "

    Seeing that Death had calmed down, Nigel tried to bring up the subject again. " It's really strange to call you Death, princess. Perhaps it would be alright if I addressed you as---- " Nigel didn't manage to finish his sentence.

    " Roxanne. Call me Roxanne then. "

    " Call me Haseo then. I understand that this name----Nigel---- is kind of difficult for the people of your country to pronunciate. "

    Growl, Haseo's stomach sounded all of a sudden.

    " Oops! I guess I forgot that I was really hungry. Ha! Let's go and grab a bite. Shall we, Roxanne? "

    Roxanne tried hard to hold back her giggles. Haseo was really funny.  He was also the first person who had ever made Roxanne laugh ever since her birth.

    After having a magnificent feast, everyone gathered at the ballroom. Lady Alysandra announced, " Ladies and gentlemen, boys and girls, let the dance begin! "

    Melodic music streamed across the entire ballroom.

[Haseo & Roxanne]

    Haseo placed his hand before Roxanne. " May I have the honour, Princess Roxanne? "

    Roxanne was taken aback. No one had ever dared to approach her, and yet, Haseo was asking her to dance? " I-I But I don't really know how to dance, Prince Haseo, " Roxanne stuttered.

    " I have to admit, Roxanne, I'm not really much of a dancer myself. But, you won't know till you try. May I? " Haseo replied.

    Roxanne turned scarlet in her face. She held out her icy cold hand to touch Haseo's. It felt nice to and warm to the touch. They walked hand-in-hand towards the center of the ballroom. They started out with slow, small steps. And soon, they were dancing as well as the others did. Roxanne felt a warm glow through her, while Haseo felt a spark of electricity in him.

[Princes & Princess]

    Many princesses and princes eyed the both of them with jealousy. " How I wish I was with that guy! What is that girl to him anyway? He would suit me even better! " All the princesses thought.

    " He is not fit to be with her! I should be the one dancing with her! ' All the princes thought simultaneously.

[Haseo & Roxanne]

    " Haseo, I think that there are people staring at us.... "

    " It's alright, Roxanne. As long as I'm with here, nobody will ever dare to hurt you. "

[Roxanne]

    Roxanne could not help but smile silently. Even though it wasn't a really a large grin like Haseo's, it was enough for Haseo to know that she was happy. " That's much better. You look lovelier when you smile, princess. "

    Roxanne blushed. Silently, she muttered, " Thank you, Prince Haseo. "

    Roxanne only wished that this moment would last forever. She was having the time of her life. She just did not want it to end quickly. She wanted to stay by Haseo's side forever. She wanted to be his. However, deep inside, she knew that they could never be. She was from a dark dimension. And he belonged to the light dimension. It was forbidden for them to be togther. Which is why she should treasure this moment as much as time would allow her to.

[Haseo & Roxanne]

    "Nigel, it's time to go home," the  King and Queen of Lightenra reminded.

    "Oh no, not now, " Haseo thought.

    "I really need to go now, princess."

    "Yes. I understand, Prince Haseo," said Roxanne, crestfallen.

    However strangely, Haseo did not release his grip from Roxanne. Roxanne did not loosen her hold either. They stood in the middle of the ballroom, hand-in-hand, reluctant to leave each other. Roxanne and Haseo looked into each other's eyes. They knew that their fates weren't supposed to cross. However, their hearts were already binded together. They were nothing without one another.

    Without any signal, Haseo pulled Roxanne towards him. Lying against his chest, Roxanne could hear his heart beating. It's beating rate was exactly like her own. She could smell his sweet scent, feel his embracing warmth. Right there and then, Haseo and Roxanne felt the world fading into nothingness. They were together. And, that was the only thing that mattered. Roxanne could not resist the urge to say, " Please don't ever leave me, Haseo."

    "I won't ever leave you princess. Just think of me, and I'll be there. I won't forget you either."

    With that, he planted a kiss on Roxanne's forehead. Then, he released his hold from Roxanne.

    Before he left, he felt a tug at his sleeve. " When will I see you again?"

    Haseo turned around to face Roxanne. He stretched out his hand. A silver heart necklace materialised onto it. At the same time, another materialised onto the Roxanne's outstretched palm. Both necklaces looke identical. They were unique in design, however. There could never ever be another extra pair. The necklace on Roxanne's palm flew to Haseo, and placed itself around his neck. Haseo walked over to Roxanne, and placed the necklace he made around her neck. " Happy Birthday, and good bye, my princess, Roxanne," Haseo muttered with a hint of despair in his voice.

    Then, he turned and walked away silently.

[Roxanne]

    She watched him as he went. Further and further away. Soon, his shadow could not even be seen. She held up her heart necklace and opened it. Inside there was Haseo's picture with his name on it. She closed it, and placed it near her heart. She whispered, " I swear that I'll never love another. I swear that I'll never replace Haseo with another," she paused and added on," Farewell, my prince, Haseo. I'll miss you...."

[Haseo]

    Once he reached his room, he shut it tight. He held up his heart necklace and opened it. Inside it had Roxanne's picture with her name on it. He closed it, placed it near his chest. He whispered," I'll miss you, my princess, Roxanne.... I swear to the Heaven Lord that I'll never love another, and that I'll love Princess Roxanne till the end. I swear I'll find you, Roxanne.... I swear we'll meet again, even if it is forbidden between the both of us."

[Roxanne & Haseo]

    They knew they weren't fated to be.... However, they knew that they would change their destinies.... No matter how far they were from each other, they would think of each other for an eternity....

#____End of Chapitre Four____#

I hope that you had enjoyed this Chapitre! It took me hours just to type this!

Anyway, for those who really want to know why I had written this whole story thing, I'll tell you.

Actually, this whole thing that I did was for my crush. I don't really know if I still feel for him, however, this is my promise that I made to him. We had actually done a comic called 'Teen Titans Freedom'. Both of us had contributed to doing it. Both of us also had our names in it. When both of us changed places in class, we weren't sitting next to each other any more. So, I couldn't continue to do it with him. I did ask him if he wanted it back. He replied that he wanted me to complete it for him. I'm not sure if he really meant it or not. However, I still did it. This is only the written part of it. I hope to hope up with a comic soon.

Note: If you're gonna ask me what happened between us, I'll tell you.

I didn't really get to tell him that I liked him. So, he doesn't know how much I feel for him till even now. It's really saddening. However, I think I still think of him sometimes nowadays.

Actually, when I was in Primary Six, I had sensed that he had already liked my best friend, Glenice. I had also sensed that Glenice had liked him too. Although she had promised me that she'll never like Nigel, she ended up going against her promise. At that time, I was really depressed. Somehow, I did not need anyone tell me that they had feelings for each other. I could just tell from the way they had treated one another.

Then, there came the day when I could not resist to ask Glenice if she had like Nigel (my crush's name if I forgot to mention). And of course, she was shocked to know how I knew. Then, she told me the truth. It all happened like this:

They happened to know each other's MSN (I didn't know Nigel's MSN)One day(It was after the PSLE by the way), they saw each other online. And they chatted with each other for a while. Then, all of a sudden, Nigel confessed to Glenice that he liked her. Glenice did likewise.

After hearing that, of cousre, I felt so emo. Afterall, it was my best friend we were talking about. I had loved Nigel more than anyone else in my life. And, I couldn't bring myself to hate Glenice. She was my best friend afterall. How could I hate her?

Well, as written in this story, Nigel is Nigel. As expected, I am Roxanne. This is just a story for me to show him how much I still love him.

Well, that's all. I hope that I really didn't bore you with my crush life. It sux. Just had to get it outta my system. Though it'll stay there forever.

Have a kona day, minna,

Fukona-sama

Heh. I know that Regina's gonna get really mad if she doesn't see me typing out my chapitre four yet. I'm so damn sorry! Gomenasai, Regina-sama!

Today is raining like Hell. Guess what? I went to Regina's house to do my Geography Project. I had so much fun there! Initially, I didn't think that it would actually rain today. So, I didn't bring an umbrella along. I REALLY REALLY regretted my decision. It turned out to rain like Hell. HELL! So, when I had to go home, I came back drenched like Hell. From head to toe, I was soaked in rain.

Here's the evidence:

While making my way to the bus interchange, I had to run. Guess what?! I passed by many people carrying umbrellas. The thing is, they all just walked pass me like I was invisible! There wasn't even a single knid soul who was kind enough to shelter me with their umbrella! DARN IT! No offense, but, there and then, I just wanted to scream ' CURSE THE LORD! '

It just so happens that nobody is a kind soul, or either I am truly invisible. I don't think that they're really unkind. I think that the problem is me! I am invisible!

Now, I'm busy listening to one of my favourite songs ' I'm only happy when it rains' by Garbage to cheer me up.

Anyway, I still love rainy days. Makes me get really high.

Hang on, Regina. Cuz' up next is my Chapitre Four! Arigatous for listening to my rants that make absolutely no sense at all. I appreciate it.

Have a kona day, minna

Fukona-sama

Hi again. I'm sorry if I haven't entered Chapitre Four yet. But, I just really wanted to say this. Heh. Couldn't resist the impulse.

The reason behind me still going to school smiling is this (I don't smile much though) :

I have two people in my class that really make my day every day. They are none other than Regina and Ying Yi. I have to admit, today when Regina asked me this, "Is there anyone so far that you recognise as a 'real' friend?"

As usual, I'd say no. But, I used to have this one friend. (probably the first person that I'll call a 'real' friend) Her name was Glenice. We used to be the best of friends in Primary Five. But, something came between us during Primary Six. As such, we don't really contact each other any more. I really don't want to talk about it though. ( You can tell me personally if you seriously want to know. )

Anyway, basically, all I want to say is that what I said was probably wrong. Both Regina and Ying Yi are really cool people. I guess it's good enough to call them my 'real' friends, then. ^x^

I'll enter Chapitre Four soon if I have the time. Please be patient and wait.

I'm feeling so sad....

The holidays are ending soon....

Which means it's time to go back to school....

I don't want the holidays to end....

I want to have all the time in the world.

Why can't the holidays last forever?

Why must all good things come to an end?

Why?